The Adventures of WonderHawk

oh what should i do with myself

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 15:48:54 GMT

the past two weeks broke me the fuck down.

school was stressed. (short line to a long story)
work not only cut my hours but stuck me with
3pm-10 friday
2pm-10 sat & sun

so when to i find time to do the excess work from independent classes, organize my life to keep from panicking, and do my god damned luandry?

I broke up with Eric, for the wrong reason. then got back together.
things have been better for me atleast, i hope he feels the same.

I think my real reason for breaking up with him is he is the only major part of my life that i can control.
and though he was in noway the problem, i doesnt legally control me, he doesnt have the power to fire me.
and i cant hate him.

we are too dependent upon eachother. and putting far to much stress on hanging out.

im afraid if we dont work on these things, the end of our relationship is iminent.
and oh god i love him. but how do two people with the exact same insanities and worries help eachother grow?

any advice that isnt "Erics a douche, dump him"

it is my day of birth

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 15:00:59 GMT

ill have to tell you of it later.
pictures will be included.
<3

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 22:39:05 GMT

my weight is suddenly up past 98pounds again.
my booty is back.

havent dont anything overly interesting, same shit different day.
same shit different year.
same shit different people.

my level of confidence aint what it used to be. i keep recalling how many friends i used to have. i keep thinking jess and i really were famous. i mean, how many 14 year old girls were known by so many in the tristate area? thats pretty damn close to famous.

now i can barely carry on a conversation. i never know what to say. my voice doesnt even sound the same. im not very nice anymore. im alot less caring. everynow and then my old motherly nature kicks in. but mostly i think that part of me has been fucked into submission.

meh, at the moment i dont really care so...meh.

how was everyones holiday?

cigarettes that dont ash, smell, or produce secondhand smoke.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 19:03:01 GMT

eclipse cigarettes are the most mind boggling cigarettes i have ever smoked.
buy some. they are rediculous.

loco loco locomotive

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 15:37:26 GMT

tired half crazy.
need nicotiene.

fighting alot with manbot.
XIU XIU is tomorrow, shit shit shit shit shit yes!!!
im scared as hell to call jamie stewart.
but i am positive all shall go as planed.

Holy Mother of Fuck, Im Seeing XIU XIU

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 04:38:07 GMT

XIU XIU
yes i am yes i am.

Eric told me they were playing in columbus soon.
wich made me completely enebriated with joy.

he then mentioned that the show would be 18 and up.

wich made me want to bash my shiny shiny bald head in (i am not bald just drunk with sudden sleepiness)

on a day of ISS (i got in school susspension for breakin ze rules, girls gotta smoke)
i decided id look up information on their new album (fucking brilliant)
what i found was Jamie Stewarts fucking email address(jamie stewart is the dude in the band)

I wrote him expressing how much id like to see the show.
The very next fucking day(today)
he wrote me back saying...

hi genevieve
thankyou!!!!!!
we can try putting you on the guest list saying you are my cousin
call me the day beforethe show (XXX)-XXX-XXXX and remind me or i will
forget
xoxooxx
and hope it works!
jamie

i have jamie stewarts fucking number (wich i have Xed out because i dont want to spread it about the internet and im surprised he gave it to me to begin with), oh yeah im coooooooool.
ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
so fucking tired.

i really hope i can go.
im going to be a good girl for the next month. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehehehehehehehehe.

hey kids

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 04:00:45 GMT

hey kids.
lets pick up sticks
lets make a sound of our own.
all dogs invited if everything feels wrong, then we'll need a little banging going on.

one two three
arms for the trees
self seekers vomiting doubts
ill change all the words but my poltergiest concurs, the words arent even nessicary now.

everybodys morphing everything is morphing

kiss for a kiss
ill change the jist
of rules that i thought you would like

remember you young duck you crash my apartment and kept me up (worry) through the night.

long short days

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 17:55:08 GMT

long short days.
feeling sick.

back from the big fucking hole

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 23:45:20 GMT

when you stare down into the grand canyon.
you get this curious feeling that it isnt deep at all.
you could walk straight across.

God Damn

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 00:13:28 GMT

I wish i was Cat Woman.

Sad Pony Guerrilla Girl

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 21:30:35 GMT

You say I am loca
because I am your girl
You say I am stupid
because I am your girl
You leave me out on the steps
you dress me up like a boy
You say that I am your secret love
You say to be quiet
but I want to tell the whole world

I like my neighborhood
I like my gun
Drive in my little car
I am your girl and I will protect you

We do it in the back of my little car
Pull up my pants and fix my bra
go on home to your kids

I'm going to be quiet and I'm going to tell the whole block

Friends only

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 23:16:30 GMT